Dono wad to do do during this 2 weeks of holiday! So bored! Don feel like driving! U knw just hw much I dislike that instructor haha! Look at his face!

Anyway it was sweet of both of u :) thanks! Not a very interesting movie but hai guo de qu. The good thing is, borrowed two books from the library and hope it'll keep me busy for the time being :D

Thought it would be a great idea to perform for RP strings but it seems like there's always communication problem and the fact that they have been delaying the scores for months and expect me to attend practices when I haven even seen the scores. Ridiculous! I'll nvr do something unprepared.

The pull up bar helps! I can do around "er hem"! Great improvement indeed! haha!!!

You might've been hurt, babe
That ain't no lie
You've seen them all come and go,

Every little thing I do
Never seems enough for you
You don't wanna lose it again
But I'm not like them
Baby, when you finally,
Get to love somebody
Guess what,
It's gonna be me..

You've got no choice, babe
I've got to move on, and you know
There ain't no time to waste
You're just too blind, to see
But in the end, ya know it's gonna be me
You can't deny
So just tell me why

There comes a day
When I'll be the one, you'll see..
It's gonna be me

It's finally over!!! It'll my last paper in my life if I cant get into uni. For once, I gotta admit this is the toughest exams so far. It was indeed a good timing to place cell on friday haha. Had cell again after my paper n of cos, I enjoyed it though I don really catch wad was discussed in cell most of the time. Eyes kept blinking, too tired I guess. It feels so good to be in cell, especially when we have gabriel and siu long with us today.

I can crap alot and it feels good to see others laughing at ur lame joke haha! But I guess that's not wad I really wanted. I'm at a loss of words when I see my brother falling into temptation, or when he's stressed, down and I couldn't say a word to calm him down. Just dono wad I can do to solve their problems!!!

I guess I should not hesitate anymore, few more times b4 I make that decision!!! I gotta BE A MAN!!! Right norman??? haha

Always saying "ok ok ok i try" but nvr see any reply from my tag or neither did u blog or set up a personal blog. Sick of it. Like I said, my words doesnt get into ur head haha! What to do??? If u can laugh when u read this post den I can only say, u're quite positive.

Anyway thanks for the encouragement!!! Appreciate it alot. Though it was until the last moment that u started TRYING to change, but still I do appreciate what u did :)

After my exams, I don think I'll see any differences. U'll just be busy with ur own stuffs, in your own world. Well I'll try to be mre understanding!!!

U're free to go,do what u really wan to do. U don have to be concerned wif me after my exams, tht's wad i meant by u're free to go. Anything that happens after my exams, I think I can alrdy visualize it.

I guess u're sick of me telling u the same thing over n over again alrdy right? haha.. well use ur actions to prove that u understand wad i said! Haha. I like the way u msg me just nw when u left me. I hope u can continue doing that. Keep it up :) At least it seems like u're back to the first day we met. The way u msg makes me feel u're concerned. That's the way haha.

Sometimes, try to put urself in my shoes and think how you'll feel if u were me. I guess u'll understand me more by doing so. Try. Tag! So that I know u bothered about what i said! Haha!

Gtg to study, u better rest more. Give urself a few more weeks, u nid some time to adapt to a new environment, don worry! U can do it, trust me :)

It's normal. First few weeks of school, there's bound to be lots of OG gathering but if you know tht's gonna affect u n u insist on going den u're indeed silly. Hmm feel sad for u that u dropped 14 bucks but since u don bother telling me den forget it haha. Suits u den. I had enough of telling u. Hmm look forward to our meeting later :) I know u're stressed wif work so I shall not ask anymore from u since wadeva I say, it's still the same though u claim that u're trying. Since u said it, I'll try to believe u den. Though u nvr really do much but still feel stressed partly cos of me so I will stop asking more from u nw. Like I said, no matter hw much I asked from u, I don seem to feel a change in it so yea, as long as u're nt stressed jiu hao.

I feel much better I guess. Indeed friends and families are still the one beside u when u have a problem. For me only? Thanks peeps. Anyway it's time I learn to change too. It's no point worrying, caring and always taking the initiative to start talking. Maybe it's just me but yea, gotta restrain myself. It's tough but I'll try. I cant afford to be like this for the remaining two papers. The last two papers determine my GPA and not to mention it's my last exam before I graduate, so it's a good chance to pull up my GPA.

It's now or never

What does a recorder do? What are its function? Record play pause fast forward/backward. There's no point in talking to a recorder, it'll just repeat after you if it u play the record button if not, nth happens. No feelings, no life it was afterall just a non living ting lol. Yea I know it's purely common sense.

Anyway, It's not about whether it is a first or second r/s. I thought it was rather clear that I allow some space for you to adapt to it. I tried, to tell you how I feel and u kept telling me u dono wad to do and I told u wad u can do but still same things happened again. Are you really committed? We're just like normal frenzs down the street. It's my final exam and of cos, I wish you could just show more concern just like when we were first tgt. Talk another time? Cant u put urself in my shoes? The more u drag, it will not solve anything but hurt me even deeper. I have told u everything I can and what u CAN/MAY do. To do it or not, it's up to u. It's just like giving you the answer to your exams script.

You said I should know it more than anyone else? For sure I know u're not good wif words but honestly, how many times have u tried? Simply saying u're not good at it and trying it once or twice will nvr change a thing. Step out of it.

U gotta stop coming up wif ur excuses my gal. If u're willing, anything can be solved esp when I have alrdy told you wad u can do, wad i'm thinking, wad i wan. Everytime when we chat, I'm the one speaking while u're the one listening so can I say that everything I gave u were good enough? If u have anything u're unhappy wif me, tell me too. I'll make an effort to change at least.

I do understand that as it's the first few weeks of school, so having OG gathering willl be pretty understandable and of cos u're trying to adapt. I know how u feel as it was the same when i got into poly. Everything's different. But still, why cant u tell me how u feel? I just got to know from your blog that u felt stressed. Cos I'm studying for exams so u're keeping it to urself? Come on, I'm here for u not becos of any1 but U! I can always juggle my time btw studies and u. Pls, we're in a r/s, not just frenz, surely I'll be there for u when u need me but u gotta share ur thoughts wif me. I'm sensitive towards u, so are u?

My first paper later. Sigh! It was the paper which I expected an A but now.... Lord, help me! Nth gonna stands in my way. I place my trust in you :)

Couldnt feel the stress until when Julian called and asked me chap 1 calculations qn n I couldnt ans him. I thought I revised everything but it seems I just know bits and pieces here n there. Cant help but keep feeling very stressed till u msg. Couldnt control my emotion, due to stress I suppose, so I guess u could feel that I wasn't myself just nw but I'm really glad u called. The sound of ur voice calmed me down, too mushy? But it's the truth. LOL.

Haven even started on the theory part n the paper's on friday. Lord help me! I know with u, I'll be able to do it :)

Been making sure that I get at least 8 hrs of sleep daily but I just cant understand, I keep dozing off almost every day and I have been sleeping at least twice per day for the past few days. Started my revision last sat but it seems like I'm still at the start. It's getting nearer day by day. Gotta rush from now.

Glad things have finally gotten better but still, it seems like some thing just cant change.

Everything's back to normal. Finally get to split out everything in my mind.Whether will our r/s change, it's up to u alrdy haha. Well tmr will be better :)

It's the first time we have a HTHT isn't it? :) I hope u can blog soon lol.

DT test went off very well today, seems like everyone are satisfied also. Good thing haha! Went to Suntec with all guys except the same few ppl who did not join us. Though tiring but fun. Our last gathering till next year when we graduate?

Anyway I finally gotten the IVP jacket! Felt a sense of achievement though I bought it instead of representing the school for competition LOL. Manage to drag the time, I was too early for cell, as I saw aileen, guo qiang & joel. Again, cell was beneficial and indeed boost my courage haha!

I guess other than exams nw, I don wana care about any other things. Nth can be more impt than God and for now, exams partly haha.

How wud u feel if I do the same thing to u, as in treat u like hw u treat me? Sounds cool? Haha. Well I'm glad GLM test's finally over. Manage to escape death so many land mines haha. If there's a nid to, I guess I should settle it asap. Cant let it drag or I'll suffer a greater loss haha. DT test on fri. Good luck everyone :)

Lord u're e only one who's there for me when I'm down, when I nid help. Indeed u're my refuge and I surrender myself to u. Too much distractions for me. Three more weeks! Help me, Lord.

Not a word of concern at all, we're just like friends afterall. Sound so funny haha!

Too many thoughts. We're like in our own world esp after ur camp. Maybe I should just act as if there's nth...

There's a good solution though, but after my exams.

It's too plain, tht's all I can say, maybe that's hw it's like when there's something keeping u busy with or maybe tht's how you want it to be so be it, as long as ur heart's still with me.

Asked my mum to teach me how to cook green bean soup ytd. It wasnt as tough as i thought but still, it's the first time n more or less I'm kinda afraid the water may blew up lol!!! Took the soup happily just to meet u and thought it would be good for u since u might not have been drinking lots of water n tht u're nt feeling well. Spend my last 10 dollars note on my ez link as i thought i'll be taking train back wif u but the moment u told me to drink it myself or give my frenz, i knew tht's it. There goes my effort. I cant blame u for being late since u just luv to stick wif the campers n tht they refuse to break camp. So silly isnt it? Why bother to do all this in the first place? Wad wud u feel if one day any1 of u cook/prepare something specially for some1 n he/she asked u to keep it urself or give to another person. U gotta experience it den u'll know. It shall not happen anymore.

Cell outing was still fun even though a few were absent. Thanks to ZHUO SI HUA for pushing me down the water that got my leg cut by the sand. How nice of u HAHA! Well it was fun :) Indeed, being wif bro n sis are always filled wif fun n laughter :)